The Pregnancy Test
Note: This post corresponds to the Momic chapter: “The Test.” You can read it on Webtoon here.
I took my first pregnancy test two weeks before I was supposed to get my period. Nothing could have prepared me for when I saw those two pink lines.
At first I thought I must’ve been hallucinating. I had only gotten my first kiss the month before. This must’ve been some kind of cruel joke, or evaporation lines or something.
Of course I didn’t believe it.
So, I went and bought another test.
It almost felt like I was on an undercover mission. After my internship I walked downtown in the rain. I walked into the local Walgreens, making sure nobody that I knew was there. I didn’t want a fellow classmate or professor stumbling into my predicament after all. If the test turned out negative like it should have, nobody would have to know anyways.
I bought my test in cash and averted awkward eye-contact with the cashier who couldn’t care less about my life. When the transaction was finished, I jammed the shopping bag to the bottom of my backpack as if that would make it disappear somehow…but the plastic crinkling sound that followed my every step let me know it was still there.
The walk home was full of unnerving thoughts and the bad type of anticipation you get knowing you might receive bad news. I remember hesitating before entering my front door, so I could prolong the last moments of normalcy in my life. This was the type of event that splits your experiences into “Before” and “After”...and I wanted to live in the “Before.”
When I saw two pink lines again I started to lose hope that I was seeing evaporation lines.
In one last effort at deniability I bought a digital test. I figured I couldn’t misread plain english. I did my business in the bathroom, and watched as my phone timer counted down to my new fate.
One Minute
Two Minutes
Three Minutes.
“Positive+”
Fuck. I was pregnant.
How did you find out you were pregnant? Did you take more than one test? Share your experience in the comments below.
